I'm Darwin Kaitiff, I came out as nonbinary over 4 years ago, and I'd like to share a poem about the importance of hope for trans people in the UK. I'll also share some of my artwork related to my identity beyond the gender binary and what brings me joy.
Life for me has grown so much more colourful since I came out at the age of 14. The journey to discovering my identity was long and filled with endless experiments but I couldn’t be more happy with where I am now. I have all the hope that in the future I will finally get to a point where I can live freely as myself with no barriers.
I have often explored aspects of myself through my art, whether it be sewing gender affirming clothing or painting in vibrant colours, I realised creating things was an essential part of who I am. I believe that art and creativity is one of the best ways to experiment with what you like and how you want to view yourself and the world around you.
I can feel my heart,
Beating in my chest.
I sense that one day,
I will be at my best.
However long, however far,
I ache, I yearn to hold that star.
One day soon, I will feel free.
Free in my skin, to live to breathe,
Comfortable in who I am,
No one to deny my right of man
One day soon, I will have there
Family, friends and those who care.
I will feel whole, unfractured, off edge
As a human and a being, I make this pledge.
I can feel it, coming together.
I am who I am, now and forever.
No amount of water
Can dowse this flame.
I am who I am, this will never change.
'Finally' illustrates the sense of relief and freedom felt in gender euphoria.
It aims to depict how you can feel physically lighter when you are accepted by others and are more comfortable in your own skin.
The name also shows how arduous that journey to freedom can feel for trans and nonbinary people exploring their identities.