I am Jay Alexander (he/him), a 22 year old queer trans man from Devon, currently figuring out life, past experiences and anything that pops into his brain, through poetry.
I wrote this thinking about when I initially came out, looking at it through a different angle regarding what was said, their reactions, what I felt and working out my current thoughts and feelings about it all.
Please note that the people that inspired this have since improved through them learning and being educated, improving on our relationship - sometimes people work on themselves and things that are bad can get better.
Thank you for reading.
Others words seep out
Like a leak oozing from a pipe
Pretending not to know any better
Making you feel like the problem
Taking not only your breath but your trust
Body frozen while your brain runs away with itself
And you start to drown
The insides of you burn searching for answers
Only knowing that your body yearns for it’s opposite
While they throw the word ‘massacre’ around
Like it’s as normal as the air around us
You hope the oxygen will disappear
So they will understand how you feel
Eventually fated
In the shadows
Avoiding detection
But yearning to be found
When you emerged
At last disentangled
Hindered no more
The world fled
Even the closest to you vanished
Talk of being unrecognisable
Changed
Distorted
You and I are now one and the same
Blissfully
Contentedly
Ourselves.
By Jay Alexander